Great Teacher Onizuka volume 19 - Cover: featuring Eikichi
(Onizuka and Azusa Fuyutsuki in a posse - like the Onizuka-Aizawa
posse in volume 13).
Lesson 151 - The cricket diary - featuring: Volume 18 cover
WARNING: This one can become very confusing at times.
(Suguru) Teshigawara screams as he stabbed a pillow, destroying
it. He continued to swing the blade, narrowly missing both
of the Fuyutsuki sisters, while screaming again at (Eikichi)
Onizuka asking him on what a worthless person like Onizuka
know about him anyway. Teshigawara continued, saying that
Onizuka is just like worthless polystyrene being brought up
without any hopes placed on him, and that Onizuka is just
someone who will destroy nature, so Onizuka will never understand
his torturous predicament.
Teshigawara continued to swing the knife, stabbing aimlessly,
as he tells Onizuka and the Fuyutsuki's sisters on how he
had always been compared with his brother who is able to use
chopsticks when his brother was 2. He then tells them that
when he (Teshigawara) was 3, he had started to learn the alphabets,
and then had to memorize the GNP of each country in the world
when he was 4, as he asked Onizuka again whether he understands
the stress of being born under such a demanding family. He
continued, saying that when he was at class, he doesn't even
dared to fart, and he have to contain it in his stomach until
the class ended. Sometimes he forgot to bring things to school,
he become so scared even the teachers are worried to see him.
He swings the blade again, and he asked Onizuka the meaning
of the words like "feelings" and "friends",
adding that such words are only said by heartless bastards.
Onizuka is silent as Teshigawara tells him that he (Onizuka)
is just like a fly that says everything he wants at the time
of his own choosing, and also he can always do things that
he desired, thus he will never understand him (Teshigawara).
Teshigawara stabbed at a picture of Fuyutsuki, as he recounted
that Onizuka is just like a cockroach that frequented video
rental stores to rent pornographic videos, and he asked Onizuka
again whether he understands him that much to call him a coward.
He then tried to stab Onizuka, when suddenly Onizuka appears
in front of him, shocking Teshigawara. Onizuka then asked
Teshigawara on why he stopped, and reminding him that he (Teshigawara)
is the one who really wants to stab him that, and asked Teshigawara
whether he had become scared. Onizuka then lashed at him for
trying to blame pressures in life as the source of his problem,
and then tells him that if he really doesn't like to live
the life he is in now, he will always be able to choose to
live his life the way he wants it. Onizuka continued, saying
that he really hates people like Teshigawara who pretend that
he is a victim of the so-called cruel society. Then, Onizuka
smiles as he exclaimed that if Teshigawara considered himself
as a man, he should take responsibility with what he have
done in the course of his life, not to try and find faults
from others, and then asked again whether Teshigawara still
wants to make excuses for himself for the rest of his life.
Hearing his questions, Teshigawara started to shiver, and
suddenly he screams, telling Onizuka to shut up and stabbed
the knife at the wall behind Onizuka, shocking him. He then
turns around, to (Makoto) Fuyutsuki's surprise and proceeds
to jump from the window all the way to the bottom of the building
where (Azusa) Fuyutsuki's apartment is located. He lands on
a treetop and into a bush, and while both Onizuka and Makoto
started to peer from the window, they see Teshigawara emerges
from inside the bush and runs away from the building.
Makoto screams, saying that Teshigawara had gotten away,
while Onizuka vowed that he would surely arrested Teshigawara
and put him in jail. He then started to try and jump from
the windows too, as Makoto screams asking on why he also jumped
from the windows, and Onizuka replied that if Teshigawara
can do such thing, he would be able to do the same too, while
Fuyutsuki looks at them silently. Onizuka screams while he
falls to the ground, and Fuyutsuki sees the Teshigawara's
diary on the floor and started to pick it up to read it
The diary reads: - (webmaster note: Contents in italic, literally
How do you do, my beloved Fuyutsuki
I'm sorry for doing such a harsh thing on you, and I'm
really sorry for doing it. Only with this way, I will be able
to let you know about my feeling for you. Maybe you are shocked
to learn the differences between me who are teaching at the
school and the one who do such a crime, but this can't be
helped (Teshigawara is shown running in the darkness).
This happened because "me" who are teaching at
the school was merely a little cricket who hide itself beneath
The few generations in my father's family works as high-profile
government workers, including my father, and they also tried
to shaped me to become one when I become an adult (Teshigawara
is shown running over a road with traffic-jam). This is
my family background; my brother, 2 years older than me and
I have to endure strict education system since we are little
so we can become the best among the best, and continued forward
to become high profile government officers in the future.
My brother had never disappointed my parents, he is very smart
since he is little, and he managed to enter a prestigious
tuition class since he was 4 and when he started studying
at elementary school, he had already mastered basic arithmetic.
He is also good in music; everyone thinks that he will
become the next Tetsuya Komuro (webmaster note: - A famous
music producer) or to become a famous musician that are
known worldwide. Then he entered high school with the best
result in his examination, plus he is also a key player in
his team, his co-curriculum activity mark is also the best.
He also knows how to dig the ground so he can plant flowers
by himself, and then when he was at Year 3 in high school,
he managed to get a distinction in a law examination, and
also passed the high examination to become a government officer.
Now he is a high-ranking officer at Okura Shiyo (webmaster
note: this name is either for Japan Finance Ministry or the
Home Minister, I lean to the latter one. I don't have any
idea at all how Japan political system works) and he is
the next in line to become the chief secretary. His future
is so bright
he is surely one of the best ever person
you can find.
(A police car is shown, and the car stopped at a back alley
where Teshigawara is squatting) Compared to him, I am just
is shown squatting between trash bins, while a stray cat is
looking at him suspiciously. He then started to imagine the
times when he makes a butterfly specimen). Since I am little,
I always like to make bug specimens. My results are OK, but
still deemed weaker when compared with my brother. My father
are not satisfied with it, and sent me to 3 tuition centers.
In other words, I was forced to study hard since I am little.
My father also told me to learn how to swim so I can have
a better physical health, in line of our family motto that
says, "A healthy body will produce a productive soul"(Teshigawara
is shown looking at his father). But it takes me 7 years
just to cover 25 meters (Teshigawara is shown swimming).
I always lashed at myself, even that my brother and I
have the same genes, why I was weaker than he is. Aren't the
law of natural selection says, that the best genes will be
inherited by the next generations of progenies? This world
is Godless. I've once suspected that my weakness is caused
by the lack of length for "genius line" on my palm,
so I take a drawing knife to make the line longer (Teshigawara
is shown wounding his own palm with a drawing knife).
(Teshigawara is shown being lashed by his father, who told
him that marks below 98 are deemed weak. He then wondered
whether Teshigawara inherit more of his wife's genes, and
started to slap Teshigawara's mother, while Teshigawara screams
silently in his heart pleading for him to stop hitting his
mom. In the next scene, he is back on making his bug specimens.)
I've considered of committing suicide, and at that time, only
the obasan who lived at the traditional Japanese house next
door will talk to me like a friend (Teshigawara is shown being
asked by the obasan whether he have been scolded again by
his father, and the obasan continued, saying that everything
will turn out OK, because Teshigawara is still a little cricket
progeny by now. She then told Teshigawara that progenies would
hide beneath the ground before appearing on the surface. The
progeny will wait for the time when it will have the ability
to chirp whenever it wants, and Teshigawara was just like
it now. Then, she continued, telling Teshigawara that his
day will also come, just like a butterfly who escaped from
its silky cage after a long time).
(Teshigawara then shown being bullied by some students who
warned him not to reports their illegal activities anymore,
when suddenly Teshigawara staged a fight back, and stabbed
a pencil inside the bully's thigh. The bully panics and flees.
In the next scene, his father scolded him for doing that.)
Sometimes, I will do such things to take revenge on anyone
who are against me, but revenge is not allowed in such a society
like ours. Why? The bully is the guilty party. Why it was
me who must be punished for that? Is it because that I am
only a progeny now? Can't a progeny do just that? (Teshigawara
is shown trying to go to the obasan house to talk with her
because he can't take the pressure anymore, but he instead
finds out the corpse of the obasan, who had accidentally slipped,
banged her head on a pillar, and died). The obasan just
kneels there without moving. No matter how I pushed and screams
at her, she never moved, just like a shell that had been abandoned
by a now-adult cricket progeny. (A few policemen, who
are called to the death scene, commented that the obasan died
after suffering a brain hemorrhage, while another asked whether
she is living alone. The police replied that it seems that
the obasan have a frosty relationship with her in-laws. Upon
hearing that, Teshigawara commented silently
are wrong. The obasan is not dead. She had simply gone out
from his shells and started the metamorphosis cycle. Obasan,
I promised you that one day I will become just like you, who
are able to fly freely on the sky.
Since that day, my attitude had completely changed, no
matter how the bully group bully me, I will simply ignored
them to concentrate in my studies (Teshigawara is shown
being bullied like Yoshikawa in the drama version). To
be able to be nominated as a prefect, I studied 8 hours a
day; to arm myself better before my own metamorphosis cycle
comes. Nevertheless, I still reported the names of the naughty
students to the teachers, putting female student's faeces
that are supposed to be sent to the infirmary inside the drawers
of the students I hated and other stuff. Then when my metamorphosis
cycle comes, I will be able to proudly become one of the Teshigawara
family members, just like his grandfather, father and brother.
(Teshigawara is shown looking at the result of the high-examination
for government officers, with head tilted to one side, like
headmaster Xavier in a fix. He failed in the exam apparently)
But, it seems that God still thinks that I am not good
enough yet to enter my metamorphosis cycle. (Teshigawara
is now shown tutoring (Hidemi) Oota, when suddenly she asked
him on what have happened to make him looks so gloomy. Teshigawara
replied that nothing had happened except that he is shocked
about a setback, and in the next session, he will surely be
OK. Oota looks at him silently, and she suddenly smiled, and
asked him again whether he needs her help to calm himself.
Teshigawara is shocked, and asked her whether she is willing
to help him calm himself as Oota touched his head. Suddenly,
he kneels before her, taking her leg and puts it on his head.
He then asked her to step on him, shocking her. He tells the
shocked Oota to just step on him, a cricket progeny who are
still unfit to start his own metamorphosis cycle, and can
only hide beneath the ground).
I then applied to become a teacher, and while working
as a teacher will not permit me to control the clueless Japan
citizens out there, I will at least still be able to go on
stage and looks at the stupid students from above (Teshigawara
is shown teaching). Only by doing that, I will be able
to cover what I am feeling deep inside my heart. I, who had
been chased out from the family, can only live my life this
way (Teshigawara is shown putting water on some ants).
At that time, coincidentally, I first lay my eyes on you
(Teshigawara is shown looking at Fuyutsuki, and sees an
imaginary butterfly wings on her back).
(Suddenly, a policeman emerges and asked Teshigawara who
are squatting at the back alley on what is the purpose he
is squatting at the back alley. The policeman then tried to
ask for more details from the silent Teshigawara. He is shocked
to see Teshigawara wearing a wedding tuxedo, and starting
to turn around to radio for a back-up squad, when suddenly
Teshigawara stands up and hit him from behind.) At that
time, I know that the time had come, when I first see the
butterfly wings on your back. I know now, that my metamorphosis
cycle had come (Teshigawara is shown taking the policeman
clothes and equipment). Waiting for that day to come, I
don't know how many bug wings had been broken up by me, but
now the time for my appearance from underneath the ground
had arrived. Hohoho, Fuyutsuki, you must wait for me. I will
arrive for you any minute now. Surely.
(Teshigawara, wearing the policeman clothes, appeared in
front of a store and sees 3 people loitering outside the store.
He then started to lash at them, asking on why they are loitering
outside the store, blocking other people's way in. Meanwhile,
back at the apartment, Fuyutsuki closes the diary as she wondered
whether he would do "that" thing, while Teshigawara
is holding the baton to hit the loiters, screaming that people
like them deserved to be punished.)
I want to be a cricket now.
End of diary.